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Fridays Fumble

Fridays Frets, Fussing and Fidgets

Well, once again I’m in a lesson. My county insurance dropped me. My boyfriend bought me additional insurance so the county dropped me but the paid for insurance doesn’t cover physical therapy. My ACL is severed and I have a grade 11 MCL tear so I need the therapy. He is stressed. I was stressed and even heart broke.

I’ve been told once my knee is healed I have to leave my residence. So now I’m in a pickle. God, what do you want me to do?

  • Not Fret
  • Not Fuss
  • Not Fidget
Proverbs 3:5
Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding

I do not understand my circumstances but I do believe, rely, trust and have CONFIDENCE in my Heavenly Father that whatever His plans are, they are good, His thoughts toward me are good and He will never leave me or forsake me!

Before I was a daughter, a wife a mother, a friend or a girlfriend, I was Gods. I am a child of God. There is no one who cares for me more. I lay this lesson, this testing of my faith, at my Kings feet. Here’s my mess. Do with me whatever you will, for it is your will be done, on earth as it is in heaven. Thank you Jesus. Give me this day my daily bread and lead me not into temptation, but deliver me from the evil one. Forgive me my debts as I forgive my debtors, for yours is the kingdom!

FinallyFriday

The Most Favorite Day Of The Week!!

Why is Friday so far from Monday and yet, Monday so close to Friday?

Unknown

Another week has passed. I looked away for just a moment on what was it? Monday? Now, it’s Friday. As fast as the week goes, the weekend goes faster. This is exactly why I like to take stock, breathe, and be mindful. Of it all. Everything. Everyone. Appreciate the time because time is it’s own master. Or rather, God is. Our times are in His hands. I have learned that I worry. I fret. I Brood, bother and fuss. Over anything, everything, nothing and then some! I make lists. Lists of lists I should make! Like a dog gnawing on a bone, I think and think and think of things I need to think! So, I am relearning to lessen my load, lighten my burden by casting my cares, my worries…all my what if’s at my Jesus’s feet. He is the Author and Finisher of this life. There is nothing I could imagine or plan that could compare to His glorious plan for me. Today, I am mindful of how small I am, but a vapor and all that I know will be gone. I am going to be thankful and relax knowing that He has everything under His control and it is all in His time…not mine!

My times are in your hands; deliver me from the hands of my enemies, from those who pursue me. Psalm 31:15

I am The Great I AMs‘

God is within me

If my time is in His care then I will not fall

Happy Birthday!!

To my first born!

You are no accident, you were planned and prayed for! There is nothing about you not known and noticed by God, I as your mother am a mere steward of you, you are Gods child first!

Mommy

I love you, oh how I love you! You are so amazing! I could sit and listen to you for hours. I could watch you, mesmerized forever! I love how God made you! You are so strong, stubborn and smart. I am praying for you, everyday. I am believing for you, the best. You have so many amazing things that God has in store for you! Your life is an adventure and the bad things that come your way are mere stepping stones. My baby girl, my lovely young woman, don’t be sad, “Awake, Awake! Put on your strength, O daughter! Put on your beautiful garments, O Jerusalem, the holy city! For the uncircumcised and unclean shall enter you no more! Shake yourself from the dust; Arise! Sit down O Jerusalem! Loose yourself from the bonds of your neck, O captive daughter of Zion!” Isaiah 52 God has given you the freedom and the Power in His Name to loose yourself and to shake yourself from dust and bonds that you find yourself in. When I realized this I was in prison. God opened up the eyes of my heart, He took a couple more scales off my eyes, I think I still have a few scales because I am still realizing many things lol, anyway, I began to see that yes, He will rescue us but we must do our part. Rise up daughter! The power that raised Jesus from the grave is inside YOU!!!!

I have a promise!

It’s not too late

Don't give up!
Write it down!!!!

Abraham was called at the age of 75 to be the father of many but was sent at the age of 100 to have the son that God called him to have. He and Sara tried, in the flesh and on their own to have a child and that was not the child God called him to have, Ishmael was born in the flesh and eventually banished to the desert. God gave Ishmael a promise of a nation of his own, but Isaac was whom God established His covenant.

Moses was called I believe at birth to lead the Jews out of captivity. He moved in the flesh thinking to kill an Egyptian that was abusing a Jew, which was his brethren. He fled and became a shepherd at the age of 40 and it was another 40 years before God sent him to free the Jews. By then he had developed a speech problem and didn’t feel he was up to the job! God waited until he was humble!!

God waited 14 years to give Abraham his promise, Moses waited another 40 years. I know God has promised me somethings, I’ve had several prophetic words, over several years, with different people. These promises take time, but we are told to write our visions and promises down, to wait for them, they will come at their appointed times. Thank you Father, that your word gives me hope. I am not too late. I haven’t been a mistake and my mistakes are not too big for you! In fact, I am excited! I am expectant! I am filled with anticipation! What God can and will do no man has seen before! He is doing a new thing!

Secret Things

Deuteronomy 29:29

The secret things belong to the Lord our God, but the things revealed belong to us and our children forever, that we may follow the words of this law

I read my devotional today and it convicted me of my worry and anxiety. As if I can do anything in and of my own. I am going through a difficult time in trusting God right now. I need to stop wrestling with myself, my past, my regrets, I must learn to forgive myself….oh the list goes on. To all my friends and followers who know I have struggled with forgiving my bf, I want to say I have processed my pain and am walking in love again. I have many questions and doubts but I am giving them all to God. I created quite a mess of my life, but I also am deeply in love with Jesus. So, as I go about my day, I let my God figure out my mess. He does work all things out for the good! I study His word and I sing to Him and I am resting at His feet.

I am my Beloveds and He is mine

Song of Solomon 2:16

Tuesday Thoughts

Choose Your Thoughts

Today I purposely choose my thoughts. When I wake up mad, I choose to let it go. I choose peace over pride. I choose love over hate. This doesn’t mean I am a door rug or that I do not matter. I matter to the one that settles matters. If a known “Christian” and leader in the community chooses mean words to say and if this same person chooses to cast me aside and out, then I trust God to make matters right for me because I am precious to God. I have to find a new place to live because my covering is lifted. I really am not worried, I know God is taking me not away from a great place but taking me away from the wrong place. It helps to know this is n my soul, it helps me not be angry and the complete unjust words thrown at me. We all pay for the things we say and do, ad if you have never had to pay because your parents paid for you, you wont understand this. All you think about is what you feel and what you think you deserve We all deserve death but we are saved by GRACE, no one is above his or under it. We are saved!!!!!! I am SAVED!!!! I am worry free this Tuesday!!!!

Motivation Monday

Great difficulties may be surmounted by patience and perseverance.

~Abigail Adams

from Inspiring Quotes:

First Lady Abigail Adams and second U.S. President John Adams were the earliest occupants of the White House. From the start of their courtship until the end of their public service, the couple exchanged more than 1,100 letters. These historical documents verify that Abigail was her husband’s closest political adviser for decades. On November 27, 1775, while home with their children in Quincy, Massachusetts, she wrote to John in Philadelphia, where he and his fellow Second Continental Congress delegates were debating which principles should underpin the fledgling U.S. government. Given their formidable challenge, Abigail offered these words of advice, maintaining that haste rarely fosters meaningful solutions.

Patience and Perseverance

I went to church yesterday with my boyfriend. It was over the top, above and beyond, the presence of the Jesus surrounded me, hugged me and loved on me and yes, He is always here with me I only need to open my heart. I am going to be still and wait on my God. He does tend to wait until the last minute, which is why I call him the ultimate Game Changer, so with that knowledge, I wait. Father, guard my mouth, help me be kind and gracious while I wait for you to answer.

Forgiveness Friday

Today I focus on “Today”. Forgetting what lay behind, I press forward. I will go to my closet to cry, I will press past any pain, I will love. Love does not blame, it does not remember any wrong, it thinks only good and love covers all sin.

Today I am thankful to have been raised hearing and learning about God. I thank God for my mom and dad, for my kids, for my freedom from prison and freedom from drugs and alcohol. Thank you Father that you put the desire inside me to change, because I know that anything good comes from you.

Steps to Forgiveness

7 Steps to True Forgiveness

  • Step 1: Acknowledge. Acknowledge the hurt. …
  • Step 2: Consider. Consider how the hurt and pain has affected you. …
  • Step 3: Accept. Accept that you cannot change the past. …
  • Step 4: Determine. Determine whether or not you will forgive. …
  • Step 5: Repair. …
  • Step 6: Learn. …
  • Step 7: Forgive.

I am on step 4

I want to forgive. I want to move forward. The wrong done comes up though and I find myself reacting and then he reacts to my reaction and its a viscous cycle. I am not perfect and I don’t expect perfection. Moments like this, when I am thrown back in time, reacting, I am at that moment unforgiving and hurt all over again. Any tips on how to handle these moments of memory?