Addiction Forgiveness Acceptance
Don’t look back, forget it
Let go, let it go and
Don’t look back
Look ahead. That’s all new
Press on, strive for it. Reach
Focus on now, not then
Don’t try to remember, remember when?
That’s been done, it’s over. Finished
This is now. Right now. To begin
Let’s begin Let’s all breathe. Breathe in. Breathe out. Now stop. It’s gone. It’s over. Don’t take it back. Forget it …….. stay forgetting
Today I purposely choose my thoughts. When I wake up mad, I choose to let it go. I choose peace over pride. I choose love over hate. This doesn’t mean I am a door rug or that I do not matter. I matter to the one that settles matters. If a known “Christian” and leader in the community chooses mean words to say and if this same person chooses to cast me aside and out, then I trust God to make matters right for me because I am precious to God. I have to find a new place to live because my covering is lifted. I really am not worried, I know God is taking me not away from a great place but taking me away from the wrong place. It helps to know this is n my soul, it helps me not be angry and the complete unjust words thrown at me. We all pay for the things we say and do, ad if you have never had to pay because your parents paid for you, you wont understand this. All you think about is what you feel and what you think you deserve We all deserve death but we are saved by GRACE, no one is above his or under it. We are saved!!!!!! I am SAVED!!!! I am worry free this Tuesday!!!!
Great difficulties may be surmounted by patience and perseverance.
~Abigail Adams
First Lady Abigail Adams and second U.S. President John Adams were the earliest occupants of the White House. From the start of their courtship until the end of their public service, the couple exchanged more than 1,100 letters. These historical documents verify that Abigail was her husband’s closest political adviser for decades. On November 27, 1775, while home with their children in Quincy, Massachusetts, she wrote to John in Philadelphia, where he and his fellow Second Continental Congress delegates were debating which principles should underpin the fledgling U.S. government. Given their formidable challenge, Abigail offered these words of advice, maintaining that haste rarely fosters meaningful solutions.
I went to church yesterday with my boyfriend. It was over the top, above and beyond, the presence of the Jesus surrounded me, hugged me and loved on me and yes, He is always here with me I only need to open my heart. I am going to be still and wait on my God. He does tend to wait until the last minute, which is why I call him the ultimate Game Changer, so with that knowledge, I wait. Father, guard my mouth, help me be kind and gracious while I wait for you to answer.
Today I focus on “Today”. Forgetting what lay behind, I press forward. I will go to my closet to cry, I will press past any pain, I will love. Love does not blame, it does not remember any wrong, it thinks only good and love covers all sin.
Today I am thankful to have been raised hearing and learning about God. I thank God for my mom and dad, for my kids, for my freedom from prison and freedom from drugs and alcohol. Thank you Father that you put the desire inside me to change, because I know that anything good comes from you.
7 Steps to True Forgiveness
I want to forgive. I want to move forward. The wrong done comes up though and I find myself reacting and then he reacts to my reaction and its a viscous cycle. I am not perfect and I don’t expect perfection. Moments like this, when I am thrown back in time, reacting, I am at that moment unforgiving and hurt all over again. Any tips on how to handle these moments of memory?
Write about a dream you remember
Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there, wondering, fearing, doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before.
Edgar Allan Poe
Any dream I wake up and remember, I will quickly write down. I learned a couple years ago, my strange, wild dreams, dreams that make no sense, they come true. I will write them down so people around me will believe that I did in fact, have a dream I am living out. I don’t understand why I dream like I do and why they come true and there are some lessons I guess I have learned. Listen to myself! Wait! I still don’t listen to myself, my heart, or my gut.
I know there’s not lot of meat here to go by, your probably as bored reading this as I am writing it. I apologize. My head and heart are some other place and I can’t quite get the words to come, or the story to tell.
Don’t say it with words, say it with your life! That about sums up any excuse to preach at me about anything. Show me what life can be like. Show me what you mean, live out your example. So when I see how you live, listen to how you talk and I think your way is better than mine and I see a difference in you than I’d like to see in my life, I’ll come ask you. Believe me, I won’t hesitate to talk to you, hear you out and believe what you have to say. We all want something better.. At least I do. So, show me!
“Doubt everything. Find your own light.”
Buddha
An old friend told me to live your fears! Whatever your afraid of, you secretly desire. She has found her light. I am ever inching my way to this unattainable light! I am little Ms Afraid~y~pants! Deep down I fear everything ,it wrecks havoc on my life! I am constantly thinking, overthinking and then rethinking every situation, any possible angle where I would be hurt. I would have tension headaches, my shoulders would ache. I was very tense. Wound tight you could say. I want to go back to school, but I hesitate. I am living but I am not living my best, or free or happy.
I have this strong woman inside me, she disappears on me rather often. There is only a shadow of her, but I know she is there. I can feel her sometimes. She is there. Here.
There are a few questions I have, these are questions I am not listening to, I guess doubt would describe it better. I am not listening to the doubts. I push on.
Proverbs 18:15, "The intelligent man is always open to new ideas. In fact, he looks for them."
I would love if I could solve problems. You could literally give me your problem and I would solve it…..just like that! No fuss, no stress for anyone. Finances, relationships and with our family/kids, issues would not be a problem because I would be after all
What does be your best self mean to you? I am pretty sure I know what it means for me, Be Your Best Self is a cast of words, regal words. They imply happiness and contentment. Then I will tell you, sadly, no I am not living my best life.
After Bella 
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