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Loving You

You are Wonderous and Marvelous. My Creator, my Father, my Healer, my Comforter. You are the smile on my face when I walk in hard times and the Joy in my heart when I don’t see an answer. You are my very best Friend. I love you

I met you at a young age. I had an encounter with you that completely changed my life. You came to me. You spoke directly to me as a little girl. In my parents’ room. You told me you loved me and that you would not leave me nor forsake me and that you would protect me and lead me as a Shephard leads his precious flock. I belong to you. I love you.

Precious Redeemer, never stop teaching me. Open my eyes to your truth. Keep me from disobedience. That I may please you and always be a pleasing aroma to you. That I sacrifice my fleshly desires and carry my cross. Create in me a loyal heart. A tender heart for you. So that I may tell the peoples of all you have done for me and how much you love them.

When I do not know the answers Father, I ask you to still me. Quiet my mind, be still my heart and as I wait with patient endurance, I call to remembrance all the good things that you have done for me and my countenance is lifted. I know that no good thing will you withhold from me. That you will perfect all that concerns me. I give you my thanks, my love and my fidelity. Oh how I love you!!

I would like to change the fact that on a deep level, I haven’t loved myself.

I would like to look in the mirror and not listen to the negative dialogue I hear within, I am actively on this trend, loving myself. I don’t want the readers to feel pity or think I am actively disliking myself. I am on the road. I am taking the purposeful time to change my inner voice, to say positive and loving things about myself, to myself. I am created in Gods image, marvelously created. I love God, so why has it taken me so long to really learn the art of giving myself a break, not comparing myself to others, I mean, God decided how I would look on purpose and it is a lie from the pits of hell that I should alter myself so I can look like someone else to be happy or prettier. That is what I would like to change, the idea that I should change something about myself just to fit in.

Daily writing prompt
What is one thing you would change about yourself?
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Forgetting

Don’t look back, forget it

Let go, let it go and

Don’t look back

Look ahead. That’s all new

Press on, strive for it. Reach

Focus on now, not then

Don’t try to remember, remember when?

That’s been done, it’s over. Finished

This is now. Right now. To begin

Let’s begin Let’s all breathe. Breathe in. Breathe out. Now stop. It’s gone. It’s over. Don’t take it back. Forget it …….. stay forgetting

Learn Who You are

Your ‘Who” is different than your ‘Do’

I am frail, I am weak, I fall short. That, however is not WHO I am!

  • I am chosen
  • I am called
  • I am forgiven
  • I am justified
  • I am loved
  • I am a Royal Priesthood
  • I am a child of God
  • I am the apple of His eye
  • I am alive with Christ
  • I am Holy
  • I am without blame before Him in love
  • I am a joint-heir with Christ
  • I am an overcomer
  • I am a new creature in Christ
  • I am the light of the world
  • I am His elect
  • I am the head and not the tail
  • I am greatly loved by God
  • I am submitted to God

I am complete in Him Who is the Head of all principality and power

This all goes with loving myself, forgiving myself and not judging what I have done, what I may do and giving myself not a pass to mess up but love. Be easy on myself. I am not who I used to be. I do not do what I used to do. I am changing, God is developing in me the desire to live a life worthy of the calling and that really begins with love. If I love, pure love, I forgive others and myself. If I love, I do my best at work, for my supervisors and the company. If I love I let things go that bother me. This is not to become a door mat. Standing up for myself is loving who I am as well as loving myself enough to not let other peoples behavior toward me effect me. This is all new to me, this revelation of loving myself in a Godly way. It is not indifferent, it is being at my core a strong oak! Well, that is all for the day!

Judge Not

Do not judge yourself harshly. Without mercy for ourselves we cannot love the world. — Gautama Buddha

Don’t forget, forgiving yourself includes not judging yourself

So here I am, so focused on my sin, what I think I am doing wrong, that I forget I am loved. That His blood covers me, I am loved and I am loveable! Recently a friend of mine sent me a devotion on judging ourselves. I have a judge. My Judge, my Father, my Redeemer, my Best Friend thought so much of me, loved and loves me so much that He laid down His life for me. There is no condemnation for those in Christ. I have heard this, read this and quoted this to others, fully believing it. About them. Not me! I guess I didn’t really think much of myself. I couldn’t forgive myself. Perhaps in loving myself enough to truly forgiving myself, is key in walking in love with myself. I walk in love with others. I give others allowances for being themselves, I just have had a hard time doing that with myself. Causes a lot of stress! I am on a journey. Ups and downs, mountains and valleys and sometimes I make mistakes. I have really been hard on myself. Guilt ridden. Oh that He loves me! I feel a little more free today. Less heavy.

Facing the Truth

I need to be honest

I was shown something today. I have to take responsibility for my own actions. When you are in a relationship with a controller it is our responsibility to follow our heart and follow what God says. I let my fear of rejection and fear of being alone keep me in an unhealthy relationship. I never said no. What he wanted for dinner was what we had. Where we went was wherever he wanted to go. He even told me one time one of the things he loved about me was that I never said no to him! That eventually gave me feelings of bitterness, feelings of even lower self worth and I harbored grudges toward a man I could have said no to and kept my self respect! I am thankful that God is showing me truths about myself. In this I can change, I can say no and I will in the future!

Revelation

The Word is Truth

When I read this scripture in Psalm 4:2 it jumped out of the page and settled into my heart. It resonated with my soul. I wrote last night about me chasing love in my relationships and they always fail. Love and acceptance come from my Lord and that is where I am right now. I am still mourning the man I love but I know that I am not a failure. I am not a loser. I am not unworthy. I am waiting on God. Everyday I seek His word, the truth about myself. I am redeemed and Jesus sacrificed Himself for ME! I have known this all my life but a deeper truth hit me last night. I have to trust God to heal my knee, to put me into a job that will enable me to support myself and I have to let go of the wrong thinking that has entrapped me, enslaved me into people pleasing and the approval addiction I have lingered in. I am a strong woman, a child of God, I am going to make it and I am going to prosper!

Ninety Nine

Luke 15:3-7  Then Jesus told them this parable:  “Suppose one of you has a hundred sheep and loses one of them. Doesn’t he leave the ninety-nine in the open country and go after the lost sheep until he finds it? And when he finds it, he joyfully puts it on his shoulders and goes home. Then he calls his friends and neighbors together and says, ‘Rejoice with me; I have found my lost sheep.’ I tell you that in the same way there will be more rejoicing in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who do not need to repent.

When I was ten years old my Father gathered me into his fold. He led me beside still waters, He protected me, He lavished me with His love! He anointed me. He had me pass under His rod, He separated me, He sealed me with His Holy Seal. I could FEEL it! Thank you Abba!! As I wait upon you, I can relax. My heavenly Daddy loves me! He has it all taken care of! Just like that little sheep in the picture, we were all lost and hopeless and scared at one time. You can call on Him. He loves you, He hasn’t forgotten you, no matter how far you stray our Good Shepherd will come!

People Places & Things

Come Out From Among Them

I am a recovering addict. The first thing you do when you quit or stop using, is decide to change. You start thinking about it, unless of course the law gets you and you are forced to stop. Or it kills you.

They say the second thing you need to do is change your “people, places and things” Stop hanging with your old friends, then you stop going to the places you used to go to to use or buy, then you stop the things. The things is a much broader statement, it literally means change EVERYTHING!!!

While in prison I read :

11 Corinthians 6:17 " Come out from among them and be separate, says the Lord. Do not ouch what is unclean, and I will receive you"

I think its pretty cool that when you are using, you say your not clean and if you are not using you say you are clean. Just an interesting thought. So I am going to share some scriptures the Lord gave me while in prison that I still use today to light the path I walk. These are also scriptures people can use when dealing with family members that are actively using. We are called to be separate. To be different. To not follow the crowd. I hope these bless you and minister to you as they do me.

Psalm 45:10 'Listen O  daughter, Consider and incline your ear; Forget your own people also, and your fathers house'

Genesis 12:1-3  'Now the Lord had said to Abram: Get out of your country, from your family and from your fathers house, To a land I will show you. I will make you a great nation, I will bless you and make your name great; And you shall be a blessing. I will bless those that bless you and I will curse those that curse you'

Isaiah 52:11,12  'Depart! Depart! Go out from there! Touch no unclean thing, go out from the midst of her, be clean you who bear the vessel of the Lord'

1 Corinthians 15:33  'Do not be deceived, evil company corrupts good habits.' 

Revelations 18:4  'Come out of her, my people, lest you share in her sins and lest you receive of her plagues.'

Numbers 33:55-56  “‘But if you do not drive out the inhabitants of the land, those you allow to remain will become barbs in your eyes and thorns in your sides. They will give you trouble in the land where you will live. And then I will do to you what I plan to do to them.’”

Joshua 23:11-13  Be very careful, therefore, to love the Lord your God. For if you turn back and cling to the remnant of these nations remaining among you wand make marriages with them, so that you associate with them and they with you,  know for certain that the Lord your God will no longer drive out these nations before you, but they shall be a snare and a trap for you, a whip on your sides and thorns in your eyes, until you perish from off this good ground that the Lord your God has given you.

I want to give the meaning as to my understanding of these scriptures. I get most of my understanding in the next scripture that I believe says it all. 

2 Corinthians 6:14   Do not be yoked together with unbelievers. For what do righteousness and wickedness have in common? Or what fellowship can light have with darkness?

 In the Bible, the word yoke was used to imply slavery, servitude or influence in family relationships and religious ones.

I love that so much of what we think is our knowledge actually was written for us so long ago. The Word is the best blueprint, the best guideline we can use to live today! It is relevant, it is alive it is the book I go by. Each problem I face I can reach for my Bible and find an answer. Seek and ye shall find! I hope you enjoy my prison journal. There is more of it coming!