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My kids & myself

What are you most proud of in your life?

When my kids were young, between 14 and 10, I became seriously ill with depression after the divorce of their father and me. I soon after became addicted to drugs and ended up in prison. Their father drank a lot but provided a safe home for them to grow up in and they are young adults now that don’t use drugs, they are all in good jobs. They work hard and now that I’ve been out of prison for 4 years, drug free, we have reconciled. I am proud of them. I am proud of myself. I do however, give God the glory and chose to stay humble because life is hard and I’ve been known to make bad choices so my pride must always stay in check lest I fall.

Forgetting

Don’t look back, forget it

Let go, let it go and

Don’t look back

Look ahead. That’s all new

Press on, strive for it. Reach

Focus on now, not then

Don’t try to remember, remember when?

That’s been done, it’s over. Finished

This is now. Right now. To begin

Let’s begin Let’s all breathe. Breathe in. Breathe out. Now stop. It’s gone. It’s over. Don’t take it back. Forget it …….. stay forgetting

Learn Who You are

Your ‘Who” is different than your ‘Do’

I am frail, I am weak, I fall short. That, however is not WHO I am!

  • I am chosen
  • I am called
  • I am forgiven
  • I am justified
  • I am loved
  • I am a Royal Priesthood
  • I am a child of God
  • I am the apple of His eye
  • I am alive with Christ
  • I am Holy
  • I am without blame before Him in love
  • I am a joint-heir with Christ
  • I am an overcomer
  • I am a new creature in Christ
  • I am the light of the world
  • I am His elect
  • I am the head and not the tail
  • I am greatly loved by God
  • I am submitted to God

I am complete in Him Who is the Head of all principality and power

This all goes with loving myself, forgiving myself and not judging what I have done, what I may do and giving myself not a pass to mess up but love. Be easy on myself. I am not who I used to be. I do not do what I used to do. I am changing, God is developing in me the desire to live a life worthy of the calling and that really begins with love. If I love, pure love, I forgive others and myself. If I love, I do my best at work, for my supervisors and the company. If I love I let things go that bother me. This is not to become a door mat. Standing up for myself is loving who I am as well as loving myself enough to not let other peoples behavior toward me effect me. This is all new to me, this revelation of loving myself in a Godly way. It is not indifferent, it is being at my core a strong oak! Well, that is all for the day!

Judge Not

Do not judge yourself harshly. Without mercy for ourselves we cannot love the world. — Gautama Buddha

Don’t forget, forgiving yourself includes not judging yourself

So here I am, so focused on my sin, what I think I am doing wrong, that I forget I am loved. That His blood covers me, I am loved and I am loveable! Recently a friend of mine sent me a devotion on judging ourselves. I have a judge. My Judge, my Father, my Redeemer, my Best Friend thought so much of me, loved and loves me so much that He laid down His life for me. There is no condemnation for those in Christ. I have heard this, read this and quoted this to others, fully believing it. About them. Not me! I guess I didn’t really think much of myself. I couldn’t forgive myself. Perhaps in loving myself enough to truly forgiving myself, is key in walking in love with myself. I walk in love with others. I give others allowances for being themselves, I just have had a hard time doing that with myself. Causes a lot of stress! I am on a journey. Ups and downs, mountains and valleys and sometimes I make mistakes. I have really been hard on myself. Guilt ridden. Oh that He loves me! I feel a little more free today. Less heavy.

Tasteful Tuesday

Taste and see that the Lord is good

Isaiah 30:20  New International Version
Although the Lord gives you the bread of adversity and the water of affliction, your teachers will be hidden no more; with your own eyes you will see them.

In my life I have tasted much adversity and drank deep from the cup of affliction but God has never left me. He uses this diet to strengthen us. To test and prove our faith. The deeper I drank the deeper my roots. I know from my times in adversity that I can do all things through Christ. While in prison He ministered love on me even in the harshest of environments. I never went without coffee and sugar, which is like gold in prison. I had so many moments that were very personal and too surreal to not be my Lord. He loves us. If you look for Him, you will find Him. 

Ekekiel 2:8   But you, son of man, listen to what I say to you. Do not rebel like that rebellious people; open your mouth and eat what I give you.”

The words I have eaten have often been hard and bitter, as I digest the truth and my flesh is told no. But oh the truth. The truth does set us free! It it a hard thing to do, the taming of the tongue, or flesh. But if we obey these truths we will find peace and freedom.

Ninety Nine

Luke 15:3-7  Then Jesus told them this parable:  “Suppose one of you has a hundred sheep and loses one of them. Doesn’t he leave the ninety-nine in the open country and go after the lost sheep until he finds it? And when he finds it, he joyfully puts it on his shoulders and goes home. Then he calls his friends and neighbors together and says, ‘Rejoice with me; I have found my lost sheep.’ I tell you that in the same way there will be more rejoicing in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who do not need to repent.

When I was ten years old my Father gathered me into his fold. He led me beside still waters, He protected me, He lavished me with His love! He anointed me. He had me pass under His rod, He separated me, He sealed me with His Holy Seal. I could FEEL it! Thank you Abba!! As I wait upon you, I can relax. My heavenly Daddy loves me! He has it all taken care of! Just like that little sheep in the picture, we were all lost and hopeless and scared at one time. You can call on Him. He loves you, He hasn’t forgotten you, no matter how far you stray our Good Shepherd will come!

Thankful Thursday

Every day may not be good. But there’s good in every day. Happy Thursday. 

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It’s Thursday, what are you thankful for?

I am thankful for God restoring my family. I am drug free! I have met some pretty awesome bloggers on here! I am thankful for my mom, for my daughters who love me and forgive me, I am very thankful for forgiveness! I am thankful my son is a good man, he loves me and forgives me too! I am thankful for grace and joy that comes in the morning! And at night!!!! I love my life!

Tuesday’s Trust

Trusting God

The word trust means an assure reliance on the character, ability or strength of someone or something.. To place confidence ~ expect confidently.

Example: When I go to my car and turn the key, I know my car, I know it will start. I do not question, wonder or hope it starts, I have developed trust in my car. As we develop a relationship we become assured of Gods character, His ability and His Word. His Word is truth.

Truth is defined as sincerity in action and/or character and utterance: Fidelity, constancy, the state of being the case; Fact.

This Tuesday, I will focus on the Truth.

I can Trust God

I can rely and trust God. He is working things out. He may be behind the scene where I can’t keep my eye on it, I can’t control it which is scary because I am human, I want to work things out myself. Which is funny on account I myself have made a pretty big mess of my life! I have scrambled around, I have tried to manipulate things and people, force my own agenda and control situations and it always blows up in my face! Instead of trying harder today and moving forward I will trust harder