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My kids & myself

What are you most proud of in your life?

When my kids were young, between 14 and 10, I became seriously ill with depression after the divorce of their father and me. I soon after became addicted to drugs and ended up in prison. Their father drank a lot but provided a safe home for them to grow up in and they are young adults now that don’t use drugs, they are all in good jobs. They work hard and now that I’ve been out of prison for 4 years, drug free, we have reconciled. I am proud of them. I am proud of myself. I do however, give God the glory and chose to stay humble because life is hard and I’ve been known to make bad choices so my pride must always stay in check lest I fall.

Forgetting

Don’t look back, forget it

Let go, let it go and

Don’t look back

Look ahead. That’s all new

Press on, strive for it. Reach

Focus on now, not then

Don’t try to remember, remember when?

That’s been done, it’s over. Finished

This is now. Right now. To begin

Let’s begin Let’s all breathe. Breathe in. Breathe out. Now stop. It’s gone. It’s over. Don’t take it back. Forget it …….. stay forgetting

Judge Not

Do not judge yourself harshly. Without mercy for ourselves we cannot love the world. — Gautama Buddha

Don’t forget, forgiving yourself includes not judging yourself

So here I am, so focused on my sin, what I think I am doing wrong, that I forget I am loved. That His blood covers me, I am loved and I am loveable! Recently a friend of mine sent me a devotion on judging ourselves. I have a judge. My Judge, my Father, my Redeemer, my Best Friend thought so much of me, loved and loves me so much that He laid down His life for me. There is no condemnation for those in Christ. I have heard this, read this and quoted this to others, fully believing it. About them. Not me! I guess I didn’t really think much of myself. I couldn’t forgive myself. Perhaps in loving myself enough to truly forgiving myself, is key in walking in love with myself. I walk in love with others. I give others allowances for being themselves, I just have had a hard time doing that with myself. Causes a lot of stress! I am on a journey. Ups and downs, mountains and valleys and sometimes I make mistakes. I have really been hard on myself. Guilt ridden. Oh that He loves me! I feel a little more free today. Less heavy.

Thankful Thursday

Every day may not be good. But there’s good in every day. Happy Thursday. 

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It’s Thursday, what are you thankful for?

I am thankful for God restoring my family. I am drug free! I have met some pretty awesome bloggers on here! I am thankful for my mom, for my daughters who love me and forgive me, I am very thankful for forgiveness! I am thankful my son is a good man, he loves me and forgives me too! I am thankful for grace and joy that comes in the morning! And at night!!!! I love my life!

FinallyFriday

The Most Favorite Day Of The Week!!

Why is Friday so far from Monday and yet, Monday so close to Friday?

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Another week has passed. I looked away for just a moment on what was it? Monday? Now, it’s Friday. As fast as the week goes, the weekend goes faster. This is exactly why I like to take stock, breathe, and be mindful. Of it all. Everything. Everyone. Appreciate the time because time is it’s own master. Or rather, God is. Our times are in His hands. I have learned that I worry. I fret. I Brood, bother and fuss. Over anything, everything, nothing and then some! I make lists. Lists of lists I should make! Like a dog gnawing on a bone, I think and think and think of things I need to think! So, I am relearning to lessen my load, lighten my burden by casting my cares, my worries…all my what if’s at my Jesus’s feet. He is the Author and Finisher of this life. There is nothing I could imagine or plan that could compare to His glorious plan for me. Today, I am mindful of how small I am, but a vapor and all that I know will be gone. I am going to be thankful and relax knowing that He has everything under His control and it is all in His time…not mine!

My times are in your hands; deliver me from the hands of my enemies, from those who pursue me. Psalm 31:15

I am The Great I AMs‘

God is within me

If my time is in His care then I will not fall

Secret Things

Deuteronomy 29:29

The secret things belong to the Lord our God, but the things revealed belong to us and our children forever, that we may follow the words of this law

I read my devotional today and it convicted me of my worry and anxiety. As if I can do anything in and of my own. I am going through a difficult time in trusting God right now. I need to stop wrestling with myself, my past, my regrets, I must learn to forgive myself….oh the list goes on. To all my friends and followers who know I have struggled with forgiving my bf, I want to say I have processed my pain and am walking in love again. I have many questions and doubts but I am giving them all to God. I created quite a mess of my life, but I also am deeply in love with Jesus. So, as I go about my day, I let my God figure out my mess. He does work all things out for the good! I study His word and I sing to Him and I am resting at His feet.

I am my Beloveds and He is mine

Song of Solomon 2:16

Tuesday Thoughts

Choose Your Thoughts

Today I purposely choose my thoughts. When I wake up mad, I choose to let it go. I choose peace over pride. I choose love over hate. This doesn’t mean I am a door rug or that I do not matter. I matter to the one that settles matters. If a known “Christian” and leader in the community chooses mean words to say and if this same person chooses to cast me aside and out, then I trust God to make matters right for me because I am precious to God. I have to find a new place to live because my covering is lifted. I really am not worried, I know God is taking me not away from a great place but taking me away from the wrong place. It helps to know this is n my soul, it helps me not be angry and the complete unjust words thrown at me. We all pay for the things we say and do, ad if you have never had to pay because your parents paid for you, you wont understand this. All you think about is what you feel and what you think you deserve We all deserve death but we are saved by GRACE, no one is above his or under it. We are saved!!!!!! I am SAVED!!!! I am worry free this Tuesday!!!!

Forgiveness Friday

Today I focus on “Today”. Forgetting what lay behind, I press forward. I will go to my closet to cry, I will press past any pain, I will love. Love does not blame, it does not remember any wrong, it thinks only good and love covers all sin.

Today I am thankful to have been raised hearing and learning about God. I thank God for my mom and dad, for my kids, for my freedom from prison and freedom from drugs and alcohol. Thank you Father that you put the desire inside me to change, because I know that anything good comes from you.

Steps to Forgiveness

7 Steps to True Forgiveness

  • Step 1: Acknowledge. Acknowledge the hurt. …
  • Step 2: Consider. Consider how the hurt and pain has affected you. …
  • Step 3: Accept. Accept that you cannot change the past. …
  • Step 4: Determine. Determine whether or not you will forgive. …
  • Step 5: Repair. …
  • Step 6: Learn. …
  • Step 7: Forgive.

I am on step 4

I want to forgive. I want to move forward. The wrong done comes up though and I find myself reacting and then he reacts to my reaction and its a viscous cycle. I am not perfect and I don’t expect perfection. Moments like this, when I am thrown back in time, reacting, I am at that moment unforgiving and hurt all over again. Any tips on how to handle these moments of memory?

Focus Friday

Did you hear the good news?

Its Friday!!!!

  • “The best is yet to be.” – …
  • “Try to be a rainbow in someone’s cloud.” – …
  • “Do good and good will come to you.” – …
  • “A positive mindset brings positive things.” – …
  • “Positivity always wins… …
  • “When things go wrong, don’t go with them.” – …
  • “Live life to the fullest and focus on the positive.” – …
  • “Keep looking up…”
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Don’t be pushed by your problems. Be led by your dreams.

Motivation

Today, let go of the stress. Release the negativity. Close your eyes. Breath.

I am inspired today to release the pain of betrayal. The lies cannot hurt me anymore. The trauma of abuse is reborn into wisdom and I am safe. I am safe to love again. I am loved. I am worthy of this great life I am living. Great things are coming to me. I am in the process of my change and it is beautiful. I am beautiful. I embrace health and happiness. I give love because I am love.