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My kids & myself

What are you most proud of in your life?

When my kids were young, between 14 and 10, I became seriously ill with depression after the divorce of their father and me. I soon after became addicted to drugs and ended up in prison. Their father drank a lot but provided a safe home for them to grow up in and they are young adults now that don’t use drugs, they are all in good jobs. They work hard and now that I’ve been out of prison for 4 years, drug free, we have reconciled. I am proud of them. I am proud of myself. I do however, give God the glory and chose to stay humble because life is hard and I’ve been known to make bad choices so my pride must always stay in check lest I fall.

I value being alone

What’s something most people don’t know about you?

I am outgoing, always smiling. I’m easy to talk to and I listen really well. I listen really well because I don’t care to share, I keep my inner being to myself. I prefer solitude to a party. People are surprised when I tell them I’m introverted because I’m so outgoing open and friendly!!

Co$t of the Cro$$

The Co$t of Discipleship

“Thus speaks the Lord God of Israel, saying; ‘Write in a book for yourself all the Words I have spoken to you’

Jeremiah 30:2

God revealed that scripture while I sat in Dallas County Jail waiting to go to prison. This is the beginning of all He spoke to me while in prison. I rode my bunk as they say for two years, and studied. My mom, bless her heart, sent me dictionaries to define words that stuck out or that I felt compelled to understand on a deeper level, she sent me devotionals and when there was no more room in my locker, she hand wrote me from Strongs Concordance. Thank you momma! It was because you kept me in pen and paper that I could write these down.

Luke 9:62  
But Jesus said to him, " No one having put his hand to the plow and looking back, is fit for the kingdom of God.
Luke 9:23,24
Then He said to them all " If anyone desires to come after me, let him deny himself, take up his own cross daily and follow me. For whoever desires to save his life will lose his life but whoever loses his life for my sake will save his life"

Mark 8:37
Or what will a man give in exchange for his life?

Luke 17:32 
Remember Lots wife? He who seeks his on life will loose it.

Genesis 19:26
But Lots wife looked back behind her and she became a pillar of salt

This regards to wanting to want to follow Jesus but still having other priorities and or desires. Or perhaps perhaps looking back on an addiction you have broken free from and what happens when we think too much about something? We are more than likely going to to go back to it. Our thoughts eventually become actions.

Our lives will never be greater than the cause we live for, ourselves or God. Do you desire earthy love and recognition, or heavenly love and recognition? Happiness or Holiness? Favor with man or God?

What are you seeking?

  • Happiness
  • Holiness
  • Recognition
  • Wealth
  • Jesus
  • Popularity

I have a promise!

It’s not too late

Don't give up!
Write it down!!!!

Abraham was called at the age of 75 to be the father of many but was sent at the age of 100 to have the son that God called him to have. He and Sara tried, in the flesh and on their own to have a child and that was not the child God called him to have, Ishmael was born in the flesh and eventually banished to the desert. God gave Ishmael a promise of a nation of his own, but Isaac was whom God established His covenant.

Moses was called I believe at birth to lead the Jews out of captivity. He moved in the flesh thinking to kill an Egyptian that was abusing a Jew, which was his brethren. He fled and became a shepherd at the age of 40 and it was another 40 years before God sent him to free the Jews. By then he had developed a speech problem and didn’t feel he was up to the job! God waited until he was humble!!

God waited 14 years to give Abraham his promise, Moses waited another 40 years. I know God has promised me somethings, I’ve had several prophetic words, over several years, with different people. These promises take time, but we are told to write our visions and promises down, to wait for them, they will come at their appointed times. Thank you Father, that your word gives me hope. I am not too late. I haven’t been a mistake and my mistakes are not too big for you! In fact, I am excited! I am expectant! I am filled with anticipation! What God can and will do no man has seen before! He is doing a new thing!

Motivation Monday

Great difficulties may be surmounted by patience and perseverance.

~Abigail Adams

from Inspiring Quotes:

First Lady Abigail Adams and second U.S. President John Adams were the earliest occupants of the White House. From the start of their courtship until the end of their public service, the couple exchanged more than 1,100 letters. These historical documents verify that Abigail was her husband’s closest political adviser for decades. On November 27, 1775, while home with their children in Quincy, Massachusetts, she wrote to John in Philadelphia, where he and his fellow Second Continental Congress delegates were debating which principles should underpin the fledgling U.S. government. Given their formidable challenge, Abigail offered these words of advice, maintaining that haste rarely fosters meaningful solutions.

Patience and Perseverance

I went to church yesterday with my boyfriend. It was over the top, above and beyond, the presence of the Jesus surrounded me, hugged me and loved on me and yes, He is always here with me I only need to open my heart. I am going to be still and wait on my God. He does tend to wait until the last minute, which is why I call him the ultimate Game Changer, so with that knowledge, I wait. Father, guard my mouth, help me be kind and gracious while I wait for you to answer.

#Bloganuary

What do you like most about your writing?

I really love the way I feel when I write. I feel most alive and empowered when I write.

Myself

“If you do not breathe through writing, if you do not cry out in writing, or sing in writing, then don’t write, because our culture has no use for it.” 

― Anais Nin

I literally have cried and sung.I mean,there are times when it takes you away and your there…in the pages….and you feel the emotions that your putting down. Its a drug in a way. Euphoric.

#Bloganuary

What does your ideal day look like?

The ideal day never comes. Today is ideal for him who makes it.

 That perfect day, that magic moment that we’re all waiting for, is right now

Everyday we wait for things to be perfect, will for sure be a loss. Perfection is not attained by circumstance but in acceptance.

That is my wisdom on the subject. However, I do prefer that day where I can drink coffee and blog in relative lonesomeness, to get my thoughts together and organized without the pressure of also cooking and taking care of the kids, spouse or animals! I like to be alone, to get things done around the house. If he is home, I’m endlessly distracted by him lol!

The Secret

By Exclusion

“Never hide things from hardcore thinkers. They get more aggravated, more provoked by confusion than the most painful truths.”
― Criss Jami

“The more you leave out, the more you highlight what you leave in.”

Liar Quotes

  • The trust of the innocent is the liar’s most useful tool. …
  • The only thing worse than a liar is a liar that’s also a hypocrite! …
  • No man has a good enough memory to be a successful liar.
  • The poet is a liar who always speaks the truth. …
  • A liar will not be believed, even when he speaks the truth.
“There is a voice that doesn’t use words. Listen.”

I have to confess that I tend to be overly suspicious. I’ve been through it, liars that is, before. However, I am learning that “gut” can also be a tad on over drive. I have learned to breath, be still and I release the power of love to bring me the truth in action rather than the “truth” I pull from my past inventory of pain and heart ache.

Forgiveness is important in families, especially when there are so many secrets that need to be healed – for the most part, every family’s got them.

 There is no love without forgiveness, and there is no forgiveness without love.

I choose to forgive myself and the people that have lied to me. I am no better than anyone, everyone should be forgiven, myself and you. I am sorry I have let things from my past and our past to linger in the present and influence my behavior and attitude. Here’s to another day!

#BloganuaryChallenge

Thank you Mindy Postoff

I enjoyed my blog challenge and hope to participate in more!! I met some cool bloggers and I wrote even when I was tired or busy, a good habit to make and my procrastination though lingering still, I feel like it is a habit I am willing to break!!! Take care and hopefully will see each other again soon!