Category Archives: My life

Smile! It’s Saturday

I hope you have a wonderful day!

“Anyone who has a continuous smile on his face conceals a toughness that is almost frightening.”

― Greta Garbo

I just read that quote and decided it is my favorite! I have been told I always have a smile on my face, I have been told I am too emotional. I agree with Miss Garbo. I am tough. I feel things strongly and that is OK. I am able to feel things, face things and I am not broken! It is the ones who are able to feel, to understand and articulate those feelings, face them, right or wrong, admit things, openly, authentically that are the fiercest! I like that about me! Hey! Today I found something I like about myself! I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!

Friday Feelings

Feelings & Thoughts

“The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart”

― Helen Keller

Such a beautiful sentiment……if one can keep their feelings in check! I myself struggle daily and often by the minute with my own feelings. So I say one cannot go by feelings alone. They are fickle. Fair weather friends are our feelings. We must think about our thoughts before we decide we can trust our feelings. Put away your feelings for a moment. Yes, our husband forgot to take out the trash, the kids left their toys out and you stepped on one this morning, barefoot. You want to yell, scream and maybe cuss. You are mad. You feel angry or upset. As long as you can control the feeling and not act in your feelings I’d say you are grown and mature. I have yet to meet that goal but I am working on it.

Today, I will not go on feelings alone. I am going to redirect my feelings and thoughts and rethink my thoughts into submission to the Word of God. Be gentle. Be meek, humble and understanding of others and KEEP MY MOUTH SHUT!!! Keep me in your prayers LOL, this is quite a personal challenge!!! Have a wonderful day and weekend!!!

Thankful Thursday

Every day may not be good. But there’s good in every day. Happy Thursday. 

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It’s Thursday, what are you thankful for?

I am thankful for God restoring my family. I am drug free! I have met some pretty awesome bloggers on here! I am thankful for my mom, for my daughters who love me and forgive me, I am very thankful for forgiveness! I am thankful my son is a good man, he loves me and forgives me too! I am thankful for grace and joy that comes in the morning! And at night!!!! I love my life!

Co$t of the Cro$$

The Co$t of Discipleship

“Thus speaks the Lord God of Israel, saying; ‘Write in a book for yourself all the Words I have spoken to you’

Jeremiah 30:2

God revealed that scripture while I sat in Dallas County Jail waiting to go to prison. This is the beginning of all He spoke to me while in prison. I rode my bunk as they say for two years, and studied. My mom, bless her heart, sent me dictionaries to define words that stuck out or that I felt compelled to understand on a deeper level, she sent me devotionals and when there was no more room in my locker, she hand wrote me from Strongs Concordance. Thank you momma! It was because you kept me in pen and paper that I could write these down.

Luke 9:62  
But Jesus said to him, " No one having put his hand to the plow and looking back, is fit for the kingdom of God.
Luke 9:23,24
Then He said to them all " If anyone desires to come after me, let him deny himself, take up his own cross daily and follow me. For whoever desires to save his life will lose his life but whoever loses his life for my sake will save his life"

Mark 8:37
Or what will a man give in exchange for his life?

Luke 17:32 
Remember Lots wife? He who seeks his on life will loose it.

Genesis 19:26
But Lots wife looked back behind her and she became a pillar of salt

This regards to wanting to want to follow Jesus but still having other priorities and or desires. Or perhaps perhaps looking back on an addiction you have broken free from and what happens when we think too much about something? We are more than likely going to to go back to it. Our thoughts eventually become actions.

Our lives will never be greater than the cause we live for, ourselves or God. Do you desire earthy love and recognition, or heavenly love and recognition? Happiness or Holiness? Favor with man or God?

What are you seeking?

  • Happiness
  • Holiness
  • Recognition
  • Wealth
  • Jesus
  • Popularity

Saturday Strength

Perfect Peace

Isaiah 26:3 "You will keep him in perfect peace, Whose mind is stayed on you, Because he trusts in you"
Good morning!!!
Good Morning

Today my peace and joy come from the Lord. I should say that everyday! I am going to start saying that, even when I don’t feel that way because feelings are fickle. Here’s a fact I can rely on. He chose me! When I was ten and read Psalms 23 I knew, I know that I knew because I cried big tears, big gulping air, snot running down my nose, loud cries of joy leapt from me! That chapter was for me at that moment. Jesus introduced himself to me in my bedroom. So much love surrounded me and I knew I wasn’t alone. The more I read, the more I study, I see in scripture that it is not me that suddenly wanted to know this mysterious man. God chooses whomever He chooses. He picked me! I am wanted and loved and worthy of His love because yes, He first loved me! The desire to know Him comes from Him. The desire to worship Him comes from Him! I can rest in His perfect love. I can’t earn it. I don’t deserve it. I only have to receive this gift.

Last night that revelation kinda hit me again. I have asked God to help me not worry, stress and fret. So, if your working on an area of your body, if your building a muscle, your working it, your sore, you might hurt or ache as the area you are building gets really worked, the same applies to your heart, or spirit. I am strengthening my faith, well, God is. So of course that means the testing of my faith is painful! Thank you Jesus that you will not ever give up on me! My resolve to stay the the of time and the testing of my faith has been renewed. I am ok! I am better than ok, I am highly favored! I am blessed going in and blessed going out. I am above only and not beneath! I am sealed with Gods Holy seal. I am the bride of Christ! I am my beloveds and He is mine!

FinallyFriday

The Most Favorite Day Of The Week!!

Why is Friday so far from Monday and yet, Monday so close to Friday?

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Another week has passed. I looked away for just a moment on what was it? Monday? Now, it’s Friday. As fast as the week goes, the weekend goes faster. This is exactly why I like to take stock, breathe, and be mindful. Of it all. Everything. Everyone. Appreciate the time because time is it’s own master. Or rather, God is. Our times are in His hands. I have learned that I worry. I fret. I Brood, bother and fuss. Over anything, everything, nothing and then some! I make lists. Lists of lists I should make! Like a dog gnawing on a bone, I think and think and think of things I need to think! So, I am relearning to lessen my load, lighten my burden by casting my cares, my worries…all my what if’s at my Jesus’s feet. He is the Author and Finisher of this life. There is nothing I could imagine or plan that could compare to His glorious plan for me. Today, I am mindful of how small I am, but a vapor and all that I know will be gone. I am going to be thankful and relax knowing that He has everything under His control and it is all in His time…not mine!

My times are in your hands; deliver me from the hands of my enemies, from those who pursue me. Psalm 31:15

I am The Great I AMs‘

God is within me

If my time is in His care then I will not fall

Happy Birthday!!

To my first born!

You are no accident, you were planned and prayed for! There is nothing about you not known and noticed by God, I as your mother am a mere steward of you, you are Gods child first!

Mommy

I love you, oh how I love you! You are so amazing! I could sit and listen to you for hours. I could watch you, mesmerized forever! I love how God made you! You are so strong, stubborn and smart. I am praying for you, everyday. I am believing for you, the best. You have so many amazing things that God has in store for you! Your life is an adventure and the bad things that come your way are mere stepping stones. My baby girl, my lovely young woman, don’t be sad, “Awake, Awake! Put on your strength, O daughter! Put on your beautiful garments, O Jerusalem, the holy city! For the uncircumcised and unclean shall enter you no more! Shake yourself from the dust; Arise! Sit down O Jerusalem! Loose yourself from the bonds of your neck, O captive daughter of Zion!” Isaiah 52 God has given you the freedom and the Power in His Name to loose yourself and to shake yourself from dust and bonds that you find yourself in. When I realized this I was in prison. God opened up the eyes of my heart, He took a couple more scales off my eyes, I think I still have a few scales because I am still realizing many things lol, anyway, I began to see that yes, He will rescue us but we must do our part. Rise up daughter! The power that raised Jesus from the grave is inside YOU!!!!

Tuesday Thoughts

Choose Your Thoughts

Today I purposely choose my thoughts. When I wake up mad, I choose to let it go. I choose peace over pride. I choose love over hate. This doesn’t mean I am a door rug or that I do not matter. I matter to the one that settles matters. If a known “Christian” and leader in the community chooses mean words to say and if this same person chooses to cast me aside and out, then I trust God to make matters right for me because I am precious to God. I have to find a new place to live because my covering is lifted. I really am not worried, I know God is taking me not away from a great place but taking me away from the wrong place. It helps to know this is n my soul, it helps me not be angry and the complete unjust words thrown at me. We all pay for the things we say and do, ad if you have never had to pay because your parents paid for you, you wont understand this. All you think about is what you feel and what you think you deserve We all deserve death but we are saved by GRACE, no one is above his or under it. We are saved!!!!!! I am SAVED!!!! I am worry free this Tuesday!!!!

Motivation Monday

Great difficulties may be surmounted by patience and perseverance.

~Abigail Adams

from Inspiring Quotes:

First Lady Abigail Adams and second U.S. President John Adams were the earliest occupants of the White House. From the start of their courtship until the end of their public service, the couple exchanged more than 1,100 letters. These historical documents verify that Abigail was her husband’s closest political adviser for decades. On November 27, 1775, while home with their children in Quincy, Massachusetts, she wrote to John in Philadelphia, where he and his fellow Second Continental Congress delegates were debating which principles should underpin the fledgling U.S. government. Given their formidable challenge, Abigail offered these words of advice, maintaining that haste rarely fosters meaningful solutions.

Patience and Perseverance

I went to church yesterday with my boyfriend. It was over the top, above and beyond, the presence of the Jesus surrounded me, hugged me and loved on me and yes, He is always here with me I only need to open my heart. I am going to be still and wait on my God. He does tend to wait until the last minute, which is why I call him the ultimate Game Changer, so with that knowledge, I wait. Father, guard my mouth, help me be kind and gracious while I wait for you to answer.

Steps to Forgiveness

7 Steps to True Forgiveness

  • Step 1: Acknowledge. Acknowledge the hurt. …
  • Step 2: Consider. Consider how the hurt and pain has affected you. …
  • Step 3: Accept. Accept that you cannot change the past. …
  • Step 4: Determine. Determine whether or not you will forgive. …
  • Step 5: Repair. …
  • Step 6: Learn. …
  • Step 7: Forgive.

I am on step 4

I want to forgive. I want to move forward. The wrong done comes up though and I find myself reacting and then he reacts to my reaction and its a viscous cycle. I am not perfect and I don’t expect perfection. Moments like this, when I am thrown back in time, reacting, I am at that moment unforgiving and hurt all over again. Any tips on how to handle these moments of memory?