I was pretty nervous. My method of staying calm was by looking up towards the back of the congregation and sweeping my eyes across the room, smiling as I spoke and having written really good notes to go by! I was 15 years old.
Category Archives: My life
Horse Back Riding
I haven’t rode a horse in years but it is my very favorite physical activity. To sit on that magnificent beast, to be in line with it, to move with it, exhilarating!!
Forgetting
Don’t look back, forget it
Let go, let it go and
Don’t look back
Look ahead. That’s all new
Press on, strive for it. Reach
Focus on now, not then
Don’t try to remember, remember when?
That’s been done, it’s over. Finished
This is now. Right now. To begin
Let’s begin Let’s all breathe. Breathe in. Breathe out. Now stop. It’s gone. It’s over. Don’t take it back. Forget it …….. stay forgetting
Learn Who You are
Your ‘Who” is different than your ‘Do’
I am frail, I am weak, I fall short. That, however is not WHO I am!
- I am chosen
- I am called
- I am forgiven
- I am justified
- I am loved
- I am a Royal Priesthood
- I am a child of God
- I am the apple of His eye
- I am alive with Christ
- I am Holy
- I am without blame before Him in love
- I am a joint-heir with Christ
- I am an overcomer
- I am a new creature in Christ
- I am the light of the world
- I am His elect
- I am the head and not the tail
- I am greatly loved by God
- I am submitted to God
I am complete in Him Who is the Head of all principality and power
This all goes with loving myself, forgiving myself and not judging what I have done, what I may do and giving myself not a pass to mess up but love. Be easy on myself. I am not who I used to be. I do not do what I used to do. I am changing, God is developing in me the desire to live a life worthy of the calling and that really begins with love. If I love, pure love, I forgive others and myself. If I love, I do my best at work, for my supervisors and the company. If I love I let things go that bother me. This is not to become a door mat. Standing up for myself is loving who I am as well as loving myself enough to not let other peoples behavior toward me effect me. This is all new to me, this revelation of loving myself in a Godly way. It is not indifferent, it is being at my core a strong oak! Well, that is all for the day!
Revelation
The Word is Truth
When I read this scripture in Psalm 4:2 it jumped out of the page and settled into my heart. It resonated with my soul. I wrote last night about me chasing love in my relationships and they always fail. Love and acceptance come from my Lord and that is where I am right now. I am still mourning the man I love but I know that I am not a failure. I am not a loser. I am not unworthy. I am waiting on God. Everyday I seek His word, the truth about myself. I am redeemed and Jesus sacrificed Himself for ME! I have known this all my life but a deeper truth hit me last night. I have to trust God to heal my knee, to put me into a job that will enable me to support myself and I have to let go of the wrong thinking that has entrapped me, enslaved me into people pleasing and the approval addiction I have lingered in. I am a strong woman, a child of God, I am going to make it and I am going to prosper!
Thirsty Thursday
In your thirst for knowledge, be sure not to drown in all the information. …
Ecclesiastes 12:12 KJV: And further, by these, my son, be admonished: of making many books there is no end; and much study is a weariness of the flesh.
K.I.S.S. Keep It Simple Stupid
rehab
So many theories, so many opinions
John 14:6 ... “Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.” King James ..
So many religions, so many people trying this and that. It is so simple. Jesus. He is the answer.
John 4:13-14 Jesus answered and said to her, “Everyone who drinks of this water will thirst again; but whoever drinks of the water that I will give him shall never thirst; but the water that I will give him will become in him a well of water springing up to eternal life.” Matthew 5:6 “Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be satisfied. Isaiah 44:3 For I will pour water on the thirsty land, and streams on the dry ground; I will pour out my Spirit on your offspring, and my blessing on your descendants. John 7:37 Now on the last day, the great day of the feast, Jesus stood and cried out, saying, “If anyone is thirsty, let him come to Me and drink.
Do not let me mislead you, there are many more scriptures on thirsting for the Jesus, these are just a few. If you want to know, ask, if you are seeking you will find but seek you must. The answers are there. You do not have to ask someone, ask God. Then open up the living Word! I pray you are blessed and that the burning quest for knowledge you are searching for be found in the Lord!
Wednesday’s Wake Up
Everything he ever said, every promise….
“If your actions don’t live up to your words, you have nothing to say.”
― DaShanne Stokes
“…they speak great swelling words of emptiness…” ― 2 Peter 2 18
With every broken promise
There comes a time when the person lying can no longer be responsible for the breaking of your heart. You are responsible for your own heart ache. When I realized this I was still heart broke. That I let myself down. That I let someone time after time and time again get my hopes up. I wanted to believe in the love I thought we shared. I wanted to believe. There are just some things and people we are not and were never meant to know, to love or to believe in. The journey is our choice to some extent and I am ready to become my own hero, my own advocate and as my daughter recently said, become independent and learn to use my own voice and use it LOUDLY!!!!
Tasteful Tuesday
Taste and see that the Lord is good
Isaiah 30:20 New International Version Although the Lord gives you the bread of adversity and the water of affliction, your teachers will be hidden no more; with your own eyes you will see them.
In my life I have tasted much adversity and drank deep from the cup of affliction but God has never left me. He uses this diet to strengthen us. To test and prove our faith. The deeper I drank the deeper my roots. I know from my times in adversity that I can do all things through Christ. While in prison He ministered love on me even in the harshest of environments. I never went without coffee and sugar, which is like gold in prison. I had so many moments that were very personal and too surreal to not be my Lord. He loves us. If you look for Him, you will find Him.
Ekekiel 2:8 But you, son of man, listen to what I say to you. Do not rebel like that rebellious people; open your mouth and eat what I give you.”
The words I have eaten have often been hard and bitter, as I digest the truth and my flesh is told no. But oh the truth. The truth does set us free! It it a hard thing to do, the taming of the tongue, or flesh. But if we obey these truths we will find peace and freedom.
Ninety Nine
Luke 15:3-7 Then Jesus told them this parable: “Suppose one of you has a hundred sheep and loses one of them. Doesn’t he leave the ninety-nine in the open country and go after the lost sheep until he finds it? And when he finds it, he joyfully puts it on his shoulders and goes home. Then he calls his friends and neighbors together and says, ‘Rejoice with me; I have found my lost sheep.’ I tell you that in the same way there will be more rejoicing in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who do not need to repent.
When I was ten years old my Father gathered me into his fold. He led me beside still waters, He protected me, He lavished me with His love! He anointed me. He had me pass under His rod, He separated me, He sealed me with His Holy Seal. I could FEEL it! Thank you Abba!! As I wait upon you, I can relax. My heavenly Daddy loves me! He has it all taken care of! Just like that little sheep in the picture, we were all lost and hopeless and scared at one time. You can call on Him. He loves you, He hasn’t forgotten you, no matter how far you stray our Good Shepherd will come!
Set Your Clocks!!
After Bella 
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