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What is your favorite quote and why

Outlaw

My All Time Favorite??

“When a man is denied the right to live the life he believes in, he has no choice but to become an outlaw.“

Nelson Mandela

The Nelson Mandela quote is hands down, the best quote, the best words even! I had these words running across my mind back when I was a fugitive on the run from the law, you can be sure!

The Henry Thomas Buckle quote is the second best, such a big truth behind such a little quote!

Society prepares the crime; the criminal commits it.”

— Henry Thomas Buckle 

Justice is a whore that won’t let herself be stiffed, and collects the wages of shame even from the poor.

Karl Kraus (1874-1936)

“A criminal mind needs consideration rather than the criminal itself. In truth, there are more criminals than those who committed a crime.”
― Harshit Walia

I love outlaw quotes! Any, all, good or bad, I love them all! A few comforted me while I was without family, a fugitive and on the run myself. I identified with several quotes, they gave me amusement I guess you’d say.

“The criminal is the creative artist; the detective only the critic.”

― G.K. Chesterton

When freedom is outlawed, only outlaws will be free.— Tom Robbins

“There’s no way to rule innocent men. The only power any government has is the power to crack down on criminals. Well, when there aren’t enough criminals, one makes them. One declares so many things to be a crime that it becomes impossible for men to live without breaking laws.”

― Ayn Rand

“Lie, it is the American way.”
― Steven Magee

Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside while still alive. Never surrender.

-Tupac Shakur

“Good. Illegal is always faster.”

― Eoin Colfer

“Poverty is the parent of revolution and crime.”

― Aristotle

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If you could, what year would you time travel to and why?

1940-1950 Hollywood Glamour!!

Grace Kelly
Elizabeth Taylor
Donna Reed
Bette Davis
Ingrid Bergman
Vivien Leigh
Audrey Hepburn
Old Hollywood Divas

Oh my goodness! I love this era! The dresses! We don’t wear dresses anymore! Not like that!

Without wonder and insight, acting is just a trade. With it, it becomes creation.

Bette Dvis

“I believe in manicures. I believe in overdressing. I believe in primping at leisure and wearing lipstick. I believe in pink. I believe happy girls are the prettiest girls.”

Audrey Hepburn

It seems so wholesome, yet you know its not. Hollywood that is, Well, if i could go back, I’d go back to that time. And wear me some dresses!!

Me

You need a heart — Solift

Do you mean I should just let go. Even if, it hurt? Even though I was badly hurt? Together! Technically, “no body deserve a SECOND CHANCE. Because we do the wrong things a thousand times over but HE STILL CARES(GOD) this is more than enough. This is the part where you think that I am […]

You need a heart — Solift
You need a heart

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Write about something mysterious

The Greatest Mystery

Child birth to me, is a great and beautiful mystery! The makings of a tiny human all inside your belly. I got pregnant with my first child in 1998. I was 23 years old and married for two years. I met a woman at church one night, she introduced herself and explained she was a mid wife, She asked me what kind of birth I would like and that set me off! ” What kind of birth?” You mean there is more than one kind? She suggested I read a book Baby Catcher: Chronicles of a Modern Midwife by Peggy Vincent, an excellent source of information. I quickly became an advocate for home birth. I transferred all my medical records to my new mid wife and off I went to plan my birth!! There is so much more to labor and birth than what Hollywood portrays. Sadly because we are uneducated and Hollywood’s spin, we have way too many hospital births and are uneducated in the benefits of home birth. That is not the magic though. The magic is in the mystery. The womb is the darkest and warmest place we have ever been. It is the place of our development and our design. Our journey into this world is full of tears and joy. Pain? Yes, there is pain, for sure. If we are taught to understand all the little things that cause us to hurt more, then we can manage this moment and endure less pain and more focus and joy. Bright lights are not normal for any other birth except humans. Our cats and dogs usually go for a quiet dark corner, alone. I completely understood when we talked about it with my midwife. I had after all, been raise in a farm. So, I decided I wanted candles only for lighting. I had my music planned. My invitation only birthing was on the way! I only had to get my child to get with it and come out! She was nearly two week late. The final count down was the day before she came out. My midwife had been at my house for nearly two days waiting for this baby! She finally said, everyone go home. I want you and your man to have a date, go for a walk, and have really good sex and we will see what happens! Well, I guess the makeup of a mans sperm can help stir the juices and get labor going!! So does breast stimulation. I loved giving birth! The joy and awe you experience when you first meet the little person you had growing inside of you is beyond mysterious and magical! It is Miraculous.!!

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Afraid

“Doubt everything. Find your own light.”

Buddha

An old friend told me to live your fears! Whatever your afraid of, you secretly desire. She has found her light. I am ever inching my way to this unattainable light! I am little Ms Afraid~y~pants! Deep down I fear everything ,it wrecks havoc on my life! I am constantly thinking, overthinking and then rethinking every situation, any possible angle where I would be hurt. I would have tension headaches, my shoulders would ache. I was very tense. Wound tight you could say. I want to go back to school, but I hesitate. I am living but I am not living my best, or free or happy.

I am Beautiful
Becoming Bella

I have this strong woman inside me, she disappears on me rather often. There is only a shadow of her, but I know she is there. I can feel her sometimes. She is there. Here.

becoming bella
Becoming Bella

There are a few questions I have, these are questions I am not listening to, I guess doubt would describe it better. I am not listening to the doubts. I push on.

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What is a cause that I am passionate about and why

Confront the dark parts of yourself, and work to banish them with illumination and forgiveness. Your willingness to wrestle with your demons will cause your angels to sing.

August Wilson

I am going to have to say, my answer is me, myself and I. I have to really truly and purposefully try and become passionate about me. I am 46 and there is so much about me and this life I’m living that I still don’t know, that I believe I must become vigilant about loving myself. Giving myself permission to not being the perfect woman, whatever that ideal is. Discovering hidden talents, rediscover old dreams and learn to relax, breath, have fun. In loving myself I will cast out the negative energy. I have tried to micromanage my life and those in it so much so, that I’m sure my beloveds have been suffering. I have been through some bad things, we all have, but when I didn’t feel I had control over my body the first time I was raped as a child I think it led me to overcompensate with controlling habits in other areas. So, that is a big discovery I have had recently. I am learning to just let go and live and love and laugh and be happy! When you let go of the control, you can learn to relax. Constantly worrying about this and that and all the what if’s. My relationship will grow stronger because the worry is gone. He loves me right now, tomorrow is another day. I cant control him or the weather so I might as well enjoy myself and him and the weather!!!

I am Brave!!

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What is a super power I’d love to have?

SuperPower Love

Problem ~Solving

Proverbs 18:15, "The intelligent man is always open to new ideas. In fact, he looks for them."

I would love if I could solve problems. You could literally give me your problem and I would solve it…..just like that! No fuss, no stress for anyone. Finances, relationships and with our family/kids, issues would not be a problem because I would be after all

That would be Andys’ first choice for me.

Taking This

What started off as what I shouldn’t do who I shouldn’t see and how could this not go wrong, overtime has become a little more right every day and I’ll admit we face some challenges but the right far out weighs the wrong and not looking too far ahead keeps us in the moment and I think our moments are pretty amazing and what started off as all wrong, today seems all right.