#Bloganuary

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What is a cause that I am passionate about and why

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Confront the dark parts of yourself, and work to banish them with illumination and forgiveness. Your willingness to wrestle with your demons will cause your angels to sing.

August Wilson

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I am going to have to say, my answer is me, myself and I. I have to really truly and purposefully try and become passionate about me. I am 46 and there is so much about me and this life I’m living that I still don’t know, that I believe I must become vigilant about loving myself. Giving myself permission to not being the perfect woman, whatever that ideal is. Discovering hidden talents, rediscover old dreams and learn to relax, breath, have fun. In loving myself I will cast out the negative energy. I have tried to micromanage my life and those in it so much so, that I’m sure my beloveds have been suffering. I have been through some bad things, we all have, but when I didn’t feel I had control over my body the first time I was raped as a child I think it led me to overcompensate with controlling habits in other areas. So, that is a big discovery I have had recently. I am learning to just let go and live and love and laugh and be happy! When you let go of the control, you can learn to relax. Constantly worrying about this and that and all the what if’s. My relationship will grow stronger because the worry is gone. He loves me right now, tomorrow is another day. I cant control him or the weather so I might as well enjoy myself and him and the weather!!!

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