Truth, it does bring with it freedom. Freedom from the burden of carrying the weight of sadness and guilt. I ran from my pain for so long. My pain was the lie you gave me about my self. Your poison. That lie. That lie that I believed, that wrecked my soul and tortured my mind I ran from this lie, but when you are running from only a lie, you are only running into madness. The running from it, is the running into it. I simply woke up one morning and I recognized it was only a lie. A lie, is nothing, it is void of relevance, void of all life It could only hurt me if I let it. You breath life into a lie when you believe it. I decided to embrace the truth of me. I looked for integrity in others and found no one. I had forgotten or overlooked myself. I realized, I was what I wanted. I had only not looked there before, because I had believed a lie. Truth can cause damage or truth can rebuild, it sometimes must do both. I am not horrible. I am not unacceptable. I was the best outlaw I could be and the best one I knew. With that revolutionary concept now accepted, what else could I do but love myself. Enjoy myself. Make myself the best, better than before. Now, having put away my criminal tendency and awakening from my drug induced self loathing and self destructive ways, I come home. Stronger, wiser and now my truth is stronger than his lie and I have broken the bondage of addiction. I have come home to myself. I love myself.
I am living…… loving me
After Bella 